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Trust the algorithm

Published about 2 months ago • 4 min read

“I taught a ten year old how to do it yesterday, so you should be able to get it, Auntie Rebecca”.

That’s Alfie. My oldest friend’s son. We’re sitting at the kitchen table, and he’s teaching me how to do a Rubix Cube. A thing that, for 42 years I just assumed was a matter of understanding the complexity and intricacy of how each of the squares moves, but, as it turns out, is just a series of movements that you repeat.

A formula that you plug in. Or, as Alfie calls it, an algorithm.

He teaches me the first steps until my brain starts to scramble. “I need a break” I tell him, and borrow a Rubix cube to practice step 1 until I’ve got it from multiple angles. That’s the thing about a formula— you can’t just do it once to learn it. You need to do it over and over and over again, until the formula works no matter the configuration you’re presented with.

It reminds me of the school subjects I loved as a teenager, which, were things like algebra, trigonometry, logic.

Problem. Formula.

Find the angle to plug the formula in and you can solve any problem you’re presented with. The more complex the problem, the more fun it is to find the angle; the more satisfying it is when order starts to emerge.

The other day, I hit a snag. I was utterly convinced I’d done something wrong along the way. Alfie takes the cube, gives it a once over, hands it back.

“Trust the algorithm. Keep going.”

“It’s not going to work Alfie- look the white square is in the wrong place for it to work.”

“Auntie Rebecca you have to trust the algorithm. Keep doing it.”

So I did.

“There, see, now it’s in the right place for you to do it again. You’ve got six more times.”

I stared at Alfie.

He looked at me, shrugged, and went back to watching a Youtube video on Rubix Cubes.

I, mind-blown, got back to practicing.

***

When I started doing spirit guide stuff, it was incredible just to get life advice from them— they give a perspective that is so vastly different to the human perspective that it makes everything okay internallyl. Not just a mental thing, but an energetic, emotional, and spiritual shift that changes your relationship with your own life. It makes you feel like you’re where you’re supposed to be and that’s okay- even if you’re in the middle of a transition; even if something difficult is happening. That in itself has been a profound gift.

But, they’ve started doing something new in the last few months. At first it was occasional, and now it’s almost every session, with every person. On top of the life advice, they’ve started flowing a person’s non-physical energy to them in a such a way that they can [often] feel it, dramatically. It’s like a stream, or a river, of energy specific to that person. They flow it towards the person, and teach them how to focus on it. Then they basically say ‘pay attention to this. Tune to it. Let yourself trust this energy over what you see in front of you in the physical world.’

It’s hard to do— if something is happening in the physical world, let’s say, your bank account isn’t doing what you want it to do, or someone hasn’t called you when you want them to, or you didn’t achieve a thing you wanted to, or something is happening in your body that you don’t want to, how on earth can you not focus on it or try to solve it?

The thing they say is that it’s just habit— we’re conditioned to try to problem solve with our minds. They point out to me repeatedly as I try to get them on board with my way of doing things, that pushing has never once actually solved a single problem in my life, but surrender has. They’re right. The fuckers.

***

A few months ago, I was on a road trip with a friend, and I was wrestling with a situation that was driving me nuts. I remembered what the Guides had told me, and somewhere on the freeway from Palm Springs to Phoenix, I said ‘okay dudes, I’ll try it. I’ll just focus on the energy you showed me and not think about the problem anymore. I’ll try it for a month. I’ll try it for every single thing for a month and then reevaluate.’

Every single time my brain went back to the problem, I would return to the energy they’d showed me. It’s like an energetic choreography— re-focusing on an internal place that allows the feeling of their energy to flow through the body. It is literally impossible to be in the energy and notice the problem at the same time.

After the weekend, the initial situation had resolved itself. I tried it for other things in that month, and each time, it resolved either better or exactly how I wanted it to. “I think you’re on to something” I said to them. (Can spirit Guides roll their eyes?) “Of course” they responded.

***

Life. It’s complex. More complex than a Rubix Cube.

But, to be honest, it doesn’t matter how complex the configuration, the answer is the same.

Trust the algorithm.

We all, every single one of us, stare at the configuration of our own lives and say “there is literally no way that this could work— look at where each piece is. It’s not going to fall into place. It’s not going to work. This configuration has actually never existed before and so it cannot be solved.”

It’s not true though. The algorithm for a Rubix Cube might be a series of up-right-down-lefts, but in our bodies its very similar too.

Feel for the stream. Let it touch you. Surrender to it and allow it through you. Trust it. Feel that it is a river that floats you through life. All the pieces click into place as a side effect of the algorithm that you learn to trust through practice.

Your job is not to control it but to allow it.

Your job is not to steer it but to be steered.

Your job is not to solve it but to trust it.

“How are you more clever than most adults I know, Alfie?”

“No offense Auntie Rebecca but most adults are not very clever.”

“Right.”

Big hugs,

Rebecca

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